The Dream

Callie visited in my dream last night.  I just know it.

In the dream, I had just arrived in Dubai to visit my sister and brother-in-law.  It was a long flight and I was jet-lagged and couldn’t tell what time of day it was as I arrived at their apartment complex.  Strangely, their home was in a much more temperate climate than one would expect for Dubai and it looked nothing like the pictures I have seen.  In the dream, it was in the middle of a misty forest, serene and surrounded by clouds.

Carly and Mark greeted me and I immediately wanted to see someone, in the dream it felt like their child.  So, I was led upstairs.  Lots and lots and lots of stairs.  Along the way, there were decorations on the wall.  One was a photograph of a sunset that had white writing on it, but the words escape me now.  After what seemed like an eternity of spiraling stairs, I arrived at the top floor, an overlook to the rest of the house.  The overlook was missing its railing and I felt a little afraid of the dizzying height of the loft.

Ahead of me was a little girl.

A little girl with dark brown hair.

And she was playing with two other children…one was definitely a boy but I cannot remember the other child very distinctly now.  As I walked towards her, there was a sign in stained glass to my right.  It looked much like the type of stained glass sign one would see hanging over a poker table.  The background was white and the writing was green, but I have no idea what it said anymore.  I wish I did.

The children were huddled together playing on the floor.  As I approached, the little girl said, “Look!”, and as she did so, she leaned over the edge of the loft and her dark brown hair fell into her face so that I could not see her features.  I came next to her…and looked, the other children behind me…

…and then the alarm clock rang.

Upon awakening, I knew instantly that Callie had visited me in my dream and began to cry, wishing I had more time with her.  What had the sign said?  What about the sunset photograph?  Little messages from my angel that I wish I could have back.  It just had to have been her.  Misty clouds?  Stairs to up above?  I was going to her home in heaven, but felt a little scared at being there.  Who were the children with her?  I wish I could remember their features…  I feel certain that she was playing with some of her other angel friends, babies lost too soon, and I wonder if those little ones belonged to other angel mommies I know.  As we looked over the edge, I know that Callie was trying to tell me that she was watching over us.

It’s ok, Mom.  I’m here.  I’m watching.  I’m always with you.  Always.

“You know that place between sleep and awake? That place where you still remember dreaming?

That’s where I’ll always love you… That’s where I’ll be waiting.”


Charlotte’s Time Capsule: 6 Months

6 Months

SIX MONTHS!  I cannot believe that it is our baby’s half-birthday.  Time is flying much faster than I would like it to.  It’s been such a fun month with our spunky little girl!

Memories to add to Charlotte’s time capsule this month:

-Charlotte can sit up all by herself now!  She looks like such a big girl when sitting on her own.  🙂

-Two little bottom teeth have popped their way up…which explains why EVERYTHING is going in her mouth.  Those suckers are sharp!

-We started giving Charlotte solid foods this month.  The first few bites were full of hilarious expressions, but she has grown to love it more and more.

-Soft fuzzy light brown hair is starting to fill in all over that cute little noggin’

-We are treated to daily “concerts” by our little soprano.  She loves to squeal and squeak at the top of her lungs.  We think she will give Mariah Carey a run for her money when it comes to her vocal range!

-I love it when she straightens her legs and points her little toes like a ballerina when she is lying on her back and she gets excited.  Her arms flap up and down excitedly!

-Charlotte is very curious about EVERYTHING and likes to play with new things.  She is excellent at finding tags on things.  It’s her favorite game!

-Her baptism was this past month and it was perfect in every way…more on that in another post.

Looking forward to Charlotte’s first Halloween and more beautiful fall weather.  🙂